Jeffs-Site

why is it that my head hurts
blurts
words
breaking across my head
assault lightning bolt from the vault
of the dead w
way hey why can’t you stay
you’d think I’d be used to it anyway
neglect
disrecpect
small checks
girls that are wrecks
got no manners
banners
where’s daddy
don’t touch me
what a mess
your guess good as mine
my prayers to the divine
rhyme
in time
it’s all fine
little glass of chardonnay
little mug full of wine
a little taste besides the salt from my crying
old you
tofu
guru
shak fu
fuck you
what’s the hell am I going to do
cling to faith
my heart breaks
a romantic with no one to romance
and wrung on a ladder
a variable of fate
she asked to stay but she had to go
up to no good
no good will I know
dreams that float, I got the vote
the pain that haunts me and eats at me like
the whispers of a ghost
tomorrow
yesterday
what a suprise
wake up
bake up
tears in my eyes
I won’t let it get to me
I won’t go down that way
my faith is in the Lord,
There’s nothing else to say….

Oh what a day,
dreary,
scary
hurtful
hairy
unexpected but ok
upset
won’t go away
suprise suprose
my heart for a rose
my mind for some love
my thanks for a hug
beautiful girls
inside you ‘re so spoiled
rotten and fuck dup
break my heart with despair every time
first I know it could never be
then I know how much you need help
what a mess, but I will pray
and tomorrow will be better
brighter
stronger
loving
hopeful
and filled with love
My God isn’t short of cash mister
and works in circles of influence
you cant’t even dream of
the unseen is his home turf
and my silent tears at home on my bed
sound like concert level thunder and volume before his throne
a good Father wants his children to grow, but not suffer
forgiveness is a beautiful thing
and I only have the energy to say Abba,
take it from me it is too heavy, I am overwhelmed with sorrow
please help……
And it will get better…
and I am thankful I am so very very vulnerable
and so very very broken…..
I have faith these mountains will move
and I expect to sit and listen as I hear the gravel scraping as they do
should it be thy will,
here on earth as it is in heaven,
the greatest of these is love.

Selah

and your’re much too angry,
angry for me,
I’m just lost amdist,
your lost and angry sea
pay too much
for nothing
and take it out on me
gained the world
lost your see
you hate me because I’m free
you can sense it,
and smell it
the taste that’s on me
like the wool
of a lamb,
that’s brushed into me
and the silence
speaks louder
than all your silly words
you hate me cause I’m wiser
than you’ve said’s absurd
tomorrow
ooo tomorrow
should thy will be done
tomorrow tomorrow
under the flares of sun
tomorrow
tomorrow
anti gravity
tomorrow tomorrow
you hate me because I’m free
and I miss
the smell of
you sweat’s sweet perfume
and the taste
of your lips
that slip to me across the room
and the dreams that I breathe
and breathe out you wish you had
and the dead
and the living
never had it so bad
or so you say
tomorrow tomorrow
sun is gonna shine
tomorrow tomorrow
the shrimp amongst the brine
and you’re lost
and I’m found
that’s the way
it must be
so you say
that’s the reason that you’re
so damn angry
and the scent of the green and the flowers lost on you
and the sky and the rain and it’s scent it there for you
and the love that you love to get lost inside
she’s still waiting she’s still laughing
don’t you won’t you take her as your bride
don’t be angry, don’t you see
it’s not done you see
don’t be angry, not like them,
you could be just like me
don’t be angry don’t get caught
in the empty empty fray,
lift it up,
say your prayers
and it could start today
don’t be angry don’t get lost
inside the waves of your envy
say it loud, say it now,
and you’ll be well off and free
say it loud say it now, no us and them, just you and me
it’s beautiful…….
All in all I’m nothing,
just a part of something
take the least of wanting
don’t you see?
The gate is open wide for you……