Jeffs-Site

You know you treat people bad over in that box.

We do and did everything for you, and you can’t even fucking pay attention or treat people like human beings with decent self esteem….

shut up and make you money…. That non verbal answer was the only thing I ever heard loud and clear

I hope you feel good selling people second rate crap, at double the price…..

Let’s talk about God for a minute shall we?

Does God like it when you mistreat people who work hard for you? No he doesn’t.

Does God like it when you take advantage of old and sick people and overcharge them for things they can get at other places for cheaper? No he doesn’t….

Does God like it when you cover up the truth and play favorites? I doubt it….

You’re a microcosm of the FDA.

Just an apology and all is good….

You shouldn’t make grown men and women nothing more than millionaire housepets.

I’ll be waiting.

What’d ja say? who am I talking about?

Why, someone way across the states of course, up there in canada….

Over in vancouver….

What a nasty fella.

Tsk tsk tsk.

You know who you are my canadian friend, like my nose knows wasabi….

shame on you.

I’m very disappointed in you, I really am.

You know, You, as in you for real, not collectively, are a really great guy,

it’s that little militia of house frau’s that are fucking up all your hard work….
giving you a bad name
acting like a pack of holier than thou, elitist, we’re up here, and you’re down there,,,,, whiney little bitches……

I think if you actually saw how they treated people when you weren’t there…..

you’d probably become physically ill
and be pretty horrified….
that’s the question isn’t it….

who’s to blame for that?

you or them…..?

If I had worked as hard as you,
I’d get rid of them in a flash
and start fresh
before their conceit and mistreatment got me a bad name
or a law suit
or fingers pointed
whatever people do when they want to tear you down….
ditch those crazy bitches fast
and clean up your act…..
Before they tank the whole house of cards….

Keep the cute doctor’s though ok?

Those ladies are amazing…..

What’s that ya said?…. Who am I talking about?

fuck if I know, you came here on your own, don’t you know?

I said before….

Why, someone way across the states of course, up there in canada….

Over in vancouver….

What a nasty bunch of unapologetic bitches…..

Tsk tsk tsk.

You know who you are my canadian friend, like my nose knows wasabi….

shame on you.

I’m very disappointed in you, I really am.
Sound like someone else? Hmmmm… that’s strange.

Well if the shoe fits….

But who knows who reads this shit….

my little way wanderers,

God only know’s where you come from.

Hope you had a great weekend….

filled with love, and joy, and shiny silver blades of happiness.

Love,Live, and Smile.

Blue 2 You baby, Blue to you.

I got my groove back.

I own this blog…. and this is my turf….

You can’t say shit about anything anymore……

unless you post a comment…..

sooner or later….

The whole world’s gonna know…..

Better fess up and save face while you still can….

It’s pronounced … In Teg Rity …..

Try it, you might like it.

Sometimes it doesn’t pay as well,
but it really feels great at the end of the day….

It ws so nice to be around an environment today with the vitamins
where there’s not a bunch of cult members trying to wring some poor old guy for all he’s worth
2o dollars for powdered magnesium,
you should be fucking ashamed of yourself,
you can get it down the street for half that,
fleecing old people is no way to please the Lord, that much I’m sure of…..
recycling knowledge that you can find for free at a health expo
or store
or someone like me
maybe that’s the problem
no one’s supposed to be smart except for the white coats and the older scientologist
maybe that was my big crime
maybe all I really need is my own bunch of people to make me their figure head
I can say all the same stuff,
I’m almost sure I’m smarter, and more educated
and definately more ethical
tell you what
why don’t we leave the lab results and interpretation to you,
and the vitamins for me,
and it will all get back on track.

You need a doctor to interpret lab results,
not prescribe you vitamins…..

I think I need a book and a white coat with a stethoscope,
and I’m a step away from a six figure salary….

Hot damn.
It’s about time….

speaking of which,
I wonder how it’s going over there
in disaster land
treatmelikeshitfornoreasonshire, screwmeoverton,
did you get the other one to pick up the slack on the stocking?
Ha!
not fucking likely
how’s it going ?
getting up nice and early
switching off the saturdays,
running yourself into the ground
for people who couldn’t give a shit less about you
face it ladies,
you’re a millionaires house pet
that’s all that you are
the minute you bark back too much
or accidently pee on the rug
it won’t matter how long you’ve been there
you’re just a cotton picker to them
a field hand
a mindless
brainless
duplicate clone
without any say
or better yet
any self esteem
any self respect
and the fact that you run it all
and keep the whole fucking show
from screeching to a halt
hasn’t dawned on them yet
that you’re the one with the real power
just decide not to show up for a day or two
maybe on a tuesday, or a tuesday and wednesday….

play a little truth or dare
how about a little game of…..
“let’s gimme a raise” or I fucking leave….
Let’s see how long that great wall of conceit and dismissal is replaced by utter panic, and total fear…..
and make sure you don’t let them know you’re more intelligent than the leader though
oh no that would be bad
don’t forget to say yes sah and no sah to some of the white coats either
or you might get fucked over quick
that retarded little midget with the specs is a lost cause
poor guy, when’s the last time he got laid? shit someone have some pity on him and let him fire off a couple of rounds ok?
sad really….
that beautiful indian girl is a total dream, God blessed her boyfriend with a mind blowing snuggle
I miss her so bad
the taller more slightly I’m not sure I guess arabic one too,
she’s amazing
happy birthday sweetie
looks like it was a one time shot
it was good while it lasted
sigh…
it’s really a shame
there’s some really cool people there too
really really first rate

I hope they had a good thanksgiving
..
that’s right
we were talking about thanksgiving…

It was lovely…

so nice to get around that elbow room again
it’s such a beautiful place….
kick ass
really nice

I went home and watched Spiderman 2
that was a good movie
I’m so glad peter parker and mary jane hooked up
that was killing me
she’s great
I think that’s basically what I am
Just a Spiderman looking for my Mary Jane
sigh….

yeah that about covers it
I’m going tohit the sack
I have to get a new coffee maker tomorrow
mine quit working all of a sudden….
totally weird….
I’ll tell you later
that’s just the beginning of it…..
I need to hit the sack……..

Good night.

Love,

Jeff

to acheive the result of my dismissal from the institute
Slander was needed
Slander and malicious intent was needed against my character
and rampant hostility, from people I was consistently kind to.

Why do I say this?
for one simple fact,

I whole heartedly support the alternative treatments and therapies done at the center.
I work and worked hard for the wellbeing of the patients, and the functioning of our department to be at it’s finest, usually at detriment to myself.

I will not refrain from referring people I care about from attending our attaining therapies there if it benefits them

I have always supported what goes on there and I still do.

to acheive the result of my dismissal, hateful, aggregious slander and misrepresentation regarding my character was needed,
it’s as simple as that.

I was never warned I could not have online content…
I was never given time to fix it, or even the option, no one even paid attention to the true content of the post they freaked out about so bad,

I was guilty of typing while sleepy, and forgetting to add a couple of quotes..
That much I’ll confess… but that’s the extent of my crime…
After all my hard work, after all my support, running myself into the ground to help all those people feel better….
For that , as a way to say thank you from a millionaire and his posse, for all my hard work, at $11 dollars an hour and a 1% commission wage…

I was singled out,
slandered,
bullied,
muzzled,
lied to,
lied about,
and tossed out the door
by an elitist, ignorant, uncaring, unfeeling, impersonal conceited pack of psychos.

without any regard for the truth of the matter, or my true opinions and perspectives..

Because someone had to take two lines of a posting out of context,
pervert and misrepresent it as though it were my words,
instead of me quoting someone elses.

because you couldn’t take the time to read something through,
or know me well enough after almost an entire year,
to know what I do and don’t support…

and has stayed in that mode of conceit, to keep from recognizing
and apologizing ,simply coming clean from their sin against me
and saying I’m sorry.

Ladies do the words Nepotism mean anything to you?
Hmmm. How about Bias, what about that….?
Can you tolerate verbs like that from the lower class of your little mini hierarchy?
from an across the street parker?
clock puncher?
one of us lowely sap car covered little peasants?
One of us First Floor dwellers?
It must be so painful….
how will you ever go on….
I’ll pray for you….

So where does that leave me?

Am I to refrain from my support just to make you feel better about yourself?

Not going to happen missey, just back off.
you only represent yourself, not the man that pays the bills.

I still support what goes on there,
and I still hope people go there to get better.

What I don’t hope is that you continue to work there,

and sin against innocent people like me.
to keep from admitting the wrongs you’ve committed against others…
God only knows who else you’ve tried to bury out in the desert with me…..

I only quoted a person or persons that stated no one was paying attention,
now I can’t help but wonder if you reacted the way you did,
because there might have been some truth to it.
Do you think they were right? Is that why I should shush? Or why would you care?

If fucking me over and making me lose my job,
to keep your conceit, slander, and misrepresentation
from being brought to light,
is your idea of an ethical way to live,
then more power to you,
in fact God Bless you.

At least I don’t maintain my position and my income by screwing over innocent people, and maintaining my income though favoritism, bias, nepotism, and conceit….

Can you say the same?

I’m thankful you cannot.

Happy Thanksgiving, and God Bless you.

Money may insulate your mistreatment,
But God isn’t bound by your money.
Live it up party girls,
Cause Justice is coming.

I will pray for your forgiveness and Grace to be full….

I hear the sound of singing bowls
and ocean surf again
the smell of salt and sand
brings me some amends
does it matter that I love you
that I miss you at all?
sitting in a circle with the dead next to my arms
I look at all your faces now
I miss you all so bad
not my best of mornings
not the worst I’ve had
coffee’s kicking in
thank God for those old beans
my favorite tshirts
incense lovely coffee and old jeans
and the memories that haunt me
and the colors of the day
I look forward to your laughter
please feel free to pray
cup is getting low
skys gone blue from grey
and here we go
elite or Pro….
no one listens anyway…

just for a point of reference,
anaheim is a freakin butthole of a town
a couple long looks out the window can make you want to blow your head off
doesn’t anyone wash their buildings off here?
Put on some new paint?

I don’t know
perhaps I’m too compulsive for that aesthetic
without a doubt
I’m a bit troubled tonight
my chest is hurting really badly
and I’m more thatn a bit concerned
it really freakin’ hurts
up and over to the left
what the hell is that about

Some of the seniors I’ve seen make me sad
I really want to empower them so much
I’m happy though
because now I have names to pray for
I have big targets on my list again
and I’m happy about that
not that they ever left
our society is sick
God help me
I hate it so much
where people don’t treat their elders with better care
there is so much money out there
fistfulls and wherehouses full of it
that someone pisses away on fancy creams
that could pay for a down payment on a seniors studio who has fallen on hard times
where’s their gosh damn family?
where’s the big gov’t cash to step in a pay for things?
Seriously I hate your f’ing guts
all you people who don’t take care of your family
I say that knowing that some of you have some dooseys
and most definately some people I wish would vanish withouth a trace
I mean that with all my heart
based on what I see from my dim view
but there are so many people who can make a difference
if we all just pitch in together
and try
even just a little
get your self esteem together
think big
think well
think clear
show some self respect
and take care of your elders
better yet
just start with the basics
just treat other people, as you would like to be treated

that’s it.

Treat them as you would wish to be treated.

Ladies…. I’m talking to you

Gentlemen…. did you hear me? I’m talking to you too fellas.

Stop for a week and just try it, see how it goes.

Shit, my head really hurts, and my chest feels worse,
what is that…. over there…
on the top left of my chest…
gosh damn that really hurts….
I wish I had a nice girl to take care of me….

I’m so tired….
Father can’t I just lie back in some nice soft hair,
some nice soft boobs against my head and cheeks, or neck
have my forhead rubbed by some nice smelling soft hands…
just tell me some nice things, I don’t even care if they’re lies….
just make me feel a little better
I feel horrible

I am so very tired……

I guess it’s time for dinner….
and then bed.

thank you God for bringing cheeba back to me tonight,
I was so very very worried.

Thanks God,

If I could fit my arms around you,

I’d give you a big hug…

Now just transport me to scotland,

and put a cherubic redhead in my arms

Let me wake up next to the moors and fog, and those fantastic wooly silly sheep and cows
and it’s a done deal….

you know if you know that I’m a vegetarian
and I wrote something hypothetically/fictionally in the voice of a person bagging on me as a vegetarian
and you know that am an active environmentalist
and in support of responsible stewardship of the earth
and wrote in the voice of a person bagging on me as a good steward
and you know that I’m a Christian
and I wrote in the voice of a person bagging on Christians
for the purpose of and as an example of someone seeing what it was like to walk in my shoes
to see how it felt like to hear ignorant and hurtful things
then why would you not take a comment posted about
something someone says at work that I also find hard to hear,
and not put it in the same context?

Unless you either
A) didn’t read the whole thing to put it into context
B) didn’t care about what it really said
C)Didn’t care if you slandered or innocently badmouthed someone and didn’t care about the consequences
D) Were intellectually challenged and couldn’t figure out the more sophisticated literary style used with such a limited sense of ethics and intellegence?

I can only wonder what it feels like to cost someone their job because you’re unwilling to give them the benefit of the doubt, and to challenged to discern the complexities of the truth at hand. Maybe you don’t like me because you know I speak the truth?

In my upset moments, maybe I do wish the words had been mine, instead of quoting someone elses.., but that wouldn’t be true, I really like the guy, he was always super nice to me… what kind of problem could I possibly have with someone I’ve only met twice? There’s alot of stupid things in this world, but seriously, shit, give me a break with that lame attack. Are you really that conceited and totally out of touch?

I can’t help but wonder if maybe the over reaction was that maybe there was some truth to it that I didn’t understand
some type of raw nerve
a panic stricken revelation
something being protected
some dirty dark secret
figures not being shared
conditions undisclosed
some aspect of what I said
as I walked out of the surf
smelling like salt and ocean and total bliss….
dried off
listened to the beautiful sound of the waves
walked home…
sat down…
and began to ramble about not looking forward to work and people’s shitty comments when I was trying to stay positive
and look forward to a week of helping people
what a horrible thing….
I sin just like rest of us
“that which I wish I did do, I do not. And that which I wish I did not do, this I do.”
well said brother Paul, well said, I’m right there with you and it sucks.
but at least I don’t have that on my head. At least I don’t treat people like that.

I’m the same nice guy I always was,
and someone came along and stabbed me as I worked….
sad as that is, no wonder I don’t sleep well……

I did get frustrated that we weren’t getting the support we needed to make the place be at it’s best, or even function for that matter, and being enabled to make it be at it’s best with a few simple steps
and be up to par,
running great,
and humming like a well oiled machine
and if you had worked with us,
that’s exactly how it would have been
to a good employer I’m like a fucking alchemist when people work with me
turning silver into gold….
coal into diamonds
oysters into pearls
I can make it fly….
You bet your ass I can,
if you can get over yourself long enough to shush
and listen to what I have to say,
with a good heart,
an open mind,
and a spirit of cooperation….
but that’s nothing I can make happen forcibly…..
that has to come from you….doesn’t it……

“In fact, everyone who wants to live a godly life in Christ Jesus will be persecuted, while evil men and impostors will go from bad to worse, deceiving and being deceived. “…….. 2 Timothy 3:12-13

I guess I should have listened, unfortunately it didn’t warn me what times that would come…. It just said it would. Sigh…

Really and sincerely,
I will truly pray for you.
And I bless you all for the rest of your life.
Because if you believe to do that to someone is ok,
and don’t think you’ve done wrong,
then that’s an excruciatingly sick and twisted way to live.
And I truly will pray for you.
and I do forgive you.
and I really really hope you take responsibility for your actions…..
before your guilt
just eats
you
alive……

God Bless you. I forgive you.

Love, Live, Smile.

:)